We arrived yesterday, on my birthday, to NYC! It was one of the most emotional birthdays of my entire life! I cried the moment my mother asked me if I was “ok” at the airport, and then didn’t stop crying until we got to the terminal. Then I was ok. Then I cried again as we boarded the plane and then I was ok. I watched eat, love, pray on the plane and I found it fitting since it was that book that forced me to light a fire under mando’s ass to make a real legit attempt at moving to NYC. The movie is just like the book; boring at times, then it picks up, then it gets boring with its brilliant moments. The end of the movie is it’s shinning moment. She speaks about something she calls the “Quest Physics.” This is a force of nature governed by laws as real as the force of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics is this: “if you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be everything from your house to your bitter old resentments and set out on a truth seeking journey, either externally or internally; and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue; and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher; and if you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself; then the truth will not be withheld from you.” All this is of course at the very end of the movie. They should have just stated this at the beginning and then said “the end.” I actually do like the book because it inspired me, but I think she’s somewhat of an idiot. This is for a different blog entry, but I recommend the book. 😉
I feel that I am on my truth seeking mission and although it is very difficult for me to leave my family and friends, I feel that it is something I must do. I cried again on the airplane right as we were about to land because I was listening to a really sad song. Which of course I must insert for you to listen. I was staring down at the rolling hills of green and lakes and rivers, and I started thinking about Pocohontas. Weird right? But I was thinking that I was somewhere over in the east coast (and of course that is where Pocohontas lived based on that disney cartoon documentary) and I got sad that I was so far from home. And then the mixture of that sadness and the song made me teary eyed and I cried again. I missed my home already, and that made me sad.
I spent my birthday eating a crepe and some hot chocolate with the hubs (aka husband) and then we came back to our friends apartment and went straight to sleep. Yup, that’s right, I didn’t go out for my birthday, I slept my face off. I was so tired and I think my body was begging me to go to bed. So I did. I also realized last night that I don’t have to go on an olympic sprint to eat everything I see. I usually do because I am just visiting and I have to eat everything in sight, but last night I reminded myself to chill out, because I live here now. How weird is that? I reminded myself to relax and to wait for my hotdogs or that delicious shishkabob cart, because I will see them everyday.
Today was a good day of exploration and I didn’t get sad. It will probably be an up and down couple of weeks, but my priority right now is to find a place and get settled in. I need a bed. I am sleeping on a twin size bed in my homies living room. The last time we slept on a twin was in college, and it was much easier then compared to now. Oh and I also embarrassed myself royally in front of a good crowd today! I was looking at my phone and didn’t see a giant curb as we crossed the street. I kicked the curb so hard that it made a loud “bang” sound then I flew forward and landed on a poor guy. Landed is such a kind word, I shoved this guy SO hard, that he must have thought it was a pick pocketing gone bad. He looked at me like he wanted to fight me then said, “oh my god, are you ok?” I squeeked that I was, then huddled into the hubs arms as he laughed out loud at the hilarity of the scene. Oh, and I learned it’s not a good idea to walk around all day in cowboy boots and a skirt. NYC 1, Jazmin 0.