Sweet Baby Jesus.
2014 has come in with a BANG! I haven’t really had a chance to breathe since January 1 and I still find myself looking for air.
It’s been one of those months, weeks where this city is just grinding you to your bones. The days are long, the winter is ridiculously cold (not as bad as Slovenia I guess) and work is hard.
I know now that I’m in a state of transition, but it’s becoming harder and harder to get through these days. Some days, I want to stay in bed, not because I am depressed but because I think I am emotionally and physically exhausted. From what? I have no idea. I know I can’t complain, work is good, home life is good and all is technically well, but I’m “transitioning” and things are coming to me that I wasn’t prepared for and now I’m being tested to my core.
I have some interesting battles ahead and I hope to report back triumphantly or at least with lessons learned.
I’m hoping everyone is off to a healthy 2014 and wish you all a magnificent year. I’ll be writing a lot more because I miss this.
I leave you with this quote from Alice Walker which basically describes this very moment in my life.
“Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening.We may feel hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed.It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained to us,that we were in fact in the process of change,of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before.Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it,as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earthas it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant.Often the feeling is anything but pleasant.But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening.Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting,holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be,eventually become the periods we wait for,for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being preparedfor the next phase of our life and that, in all probability,a new level of the personality is about to be revealed.”